Beginning to Heal Body-Image with Body Neutrality

I have never met a person who was satisfied with their body as it was right at that very second. Particularly among women I work with in my psychotherapy practice, I hear complaints, self-deprecating comments, and how something they are doing related to food, exercise, or anything else just isn’t quite right.

Instead of purely enjoying a dessert or other decadent and delicious food, we often say, “I shouldn’t be eating this.” Why can’t we just say, “This tastes amazing, I love it so much!” This often comes from internalized beliefs about food, and patterns of restrictive diets that lead to food guilt and shame. When given a compliment about an outfit, I often hear it thrown back with a negative, self-rejecting comment, like, “If only I were five (or more) pounds lighter, it would look better.” I hear, “I should be exercising more. I should be eating healthier.” I should, I should, I should… Why is this? Why do so many women hate their bodies and struggle with body-image most of their lives? Why do so many women put so much pressure on themselves to look like what society has deemed to be beautiful, attractive, hot, and sexy?

For those who struggle with emotional eating, disordered eating, or an eating disorder, body-image tends to be the last layer to heal. For so many people, body-image is deeply entrenched and entangled with emotional eating. The long-standing history of feeling less than because of their physical body is old, deeply rooted, and very difficult to shift. Learning how to practice body neutrality allows it to become more possible to shift into gratitude for our bodies, and eventually, maybe even lead to body positivity. Mindfulness, particularly the element of nonjudgment, is essential in this work of true self, and body acceptance in mind, body, and spirit.

So what is body neutrality and how does it help with healing body-image? Body neutrality is a mindfulness practice that creates a neutralizing impact on our relationship with our bodies. Mindfulness is paying attention from moment to moment with a nonjudgemental awareness. Mindfulness allows us to recognize and release judgement in a way that can be neutralizing and have a profound emotional impact. Body neutrality as a mindfulness exercise allows us to focus on facts and functions versus size, shape, judgements, and emotions. When I walk my clients through the process of body neutrality, often there are areas of their body that they struggle with to get to a place of neutrality, however, with time, practice, and more practice, they often find it is indeed possible to accept, and even to love their bodies.

Body neutrality is an exercise that first I have people do in their minds eye. I talk them through each area of their body and encourage them to neutralize any judgements, and consider a fact and/or a function about each body part. For instance, if someone doesn’t like an aspect of their nose, rather than focusing on the judgement or emotion around their nose, can they name a fact, it's this particular shape, it’s in the middle of my face, it has a bridge and nostrils… and so on. And then can they name a function, I use my nose to breathe and to smell. Once we get to a place of neutrality consistently, most people notice a decrease in their self-judgement and emotional distress when experiencing their body.

Then, if possible, we search for gratitude. Is it possible to be grateful for your nose, just as it existing is in this moment? Can you experience feeling your nose in space? If so, experiencing their nose from a space of nonjudgement and gratitude, it often begins to continue to shift from discomfort to neutrality, and then over time, maybe even positivity—although this is not the goal, just a possible outcome. I encourage you to try this practice, to observe your body in your mind’s eye as a whole, and just see if you can be present with your body as the container that lovingly holds you, in this moment, just as it is. Then slowly move through your head and face, neck and shoulders, arms and hands, torso, hips, legs and feet. With each part of your body, consider a fact and/or a function. Notice how that feels. If an emotion or judgement comes in, notice it and let it go. If possible, see if you can offer gratitude to each part as you go through the exercise, not to force it, just to see what occurs.

When practiced consistently over time, body neutrality can transform your relationship with your body, as well as with yourself.

Embracing Emotions

Allowing ourselves to be present with our emotions is an incredibly powerful and meaningful practice. When we embrace our emotions, we are embracing ourselves in a way that lets our feelings and experiences know that we can handle them. However, it can be a really challenging practice to embrace our emotions when we are struggling, when we are going through a difficult time, or when we are stressed and overwhelmed with life in general. When we’ve gotten good at numbing out and avoiding our emotions through behaviors, it can feel like we need to start completely from the beginning to learn how to be present with our emotions. It’s worth it to put in the work to learn to fully embrace our emotions.

Embracing our emotions can be a difficult practice to start if we have been avoiding, numbing out, or suppressing our emotions for a long time. We cannot pick and choose which emotions to numb, so if we are numbing any emotions we are numbing out the full spectrum of our emotions. This generalized emotional numbing creates a limited range of experiencing our lives in the here and the now to the fullest, and this is causes suffering.

If you allow yourself to fully embrace the vast range of the emotions you experience, you allow yourself to embrace yourself, your fullness, and your wholeness, as the amazing being that you are. If you avoid, numb, or repress your emotions, you are limiting your experience of your life and not embracing your full-self.

Emotions are information. They allow us to understand our experience and provide us with powerful messages regarding what and how we are taking in our present moment. When you can experience your emotions in a nonjudgemental way, by observing, exploring, and fully processing your emotions, you receive really valuable information. The trouble is that many of us struggle with the discomfort of uncomfortable emotions, and many of us never learned how to cope, handle, express, or release our emotions in a healthy way. This can lead to beliefs about our emotions that are faulty and unhelpful, such as anger is a “bad” emotion and happiness is a “good” emotion. If you can remove the judgement you can see the emotion for what it is, helpful information about your life experiences.

In the process of learning to embrace our emotions there are helpful ways to begin to ease into the work. When it comes to emotions, it can be helpful to know that you have to name them to tame them. Learning to name your emotions immediately diffuses some of the intensity of the emotion. Naming your emotion creates a construct to understand the emotion through language. Once you’ve named the emotion for what it is, the taming of the emotion is about getting curious about why the emotion is present for you, and what it wants you to know. In a space of curiosity you can ask questions that allow you to explore and express the emotions in a healthy, meaningful, and empowering way. 

Another important factor in learning to embrace our emotions is understanding, feeling, and coping with, the somatic elements of emotions. Thoughts about an experience can conjure up sensations in our bodies, this is where the emotions live within our physical being. Once you’ve named your emotion and gotten curious about it, begin to sit with where you feel the emotion in your body. This can be uncomfortable, however, if you can describe the sensation, and continue with the practice of curiosity, you can understand it, and then allow your body to feel it fully, in order to release it. 

Our bodies don’t know the difference between thoughts, perceptions, and experiences, so getting in touch with the somatic elements of emotions can happen after the fact of a challenging circumstance that hasn’t been fully processed. This is why it is so helpful to practice processing feelings by being present with them, naming them, and practicing letting them go in a way that allows you to fully release them from your mind and your body. This way you are not carrying around the baggage of old, unprocessed feelings. When we bury our feelings, we bury them alive. They don’t go away, they get repressed and suppressed and eventually they show back up because they want to be understood and healed. This process allows that full and deep embrace of your emotions, welcoming them in, naming them, getting curious about them, and then truly feeling them so you can let them go.

Journaling can be a very helpful way to begin to get in touch with your emotions. It can be intimidating if you haven’t tried it, and sometimes clients tell me that they are afraid of getting stuck in an uncomfortable emotion or feeling state if they open it up to journaling. This is where I recommend having a journaling process, where you feel in control of easing into the work of embracing your emotions. While it’s important that you find the right process for you, I recommend starting with a feelings wheel, you can access one HERE. Begin by naming the emotion, or locate the emotion on the wheel. Write it down in your journal. Set a timer for 1-5 minutes and write out everything you can about this particular feeling. 

It might look something like this:

-Emotion Name: Anger

-Where do I feel the emotion in my body? I feel it in my stomach, it’s a swirling feeling that I don’t like, and my heart is beating faster, there is some tension in my arms and my jaw. Everything feels tight.

-Am I trying to avoid the emotion, if so why? It feels really uncomfortable, I don’t like feeling angry, I just want it to go away.

-What message is this emotion trying to send me, what does it want me to know? I am feeling this emotion because someone really upset me at work, I feel like they took advantage of my kindness and then took credit for something I worked really hard on, it makes me so mad that they did this and then I didn’t stand up for myself, I didn’t know what else to do so I just stood there and now I’m stuck with all of this anger towards them and towards myself. I’m also hurt, I thought this person was a friend.

-What does this feeling need from me, is there any action I can take? It wants me to stand up for myself, to confront the person, but that feels really scary. It wants me to be brave and tell this person how I feel. I don’t know if I’m ready for that, but that’s what it wants me to know it needs.

-When the timer goes off, pause, take a breath, and draw a line on the page to delineate before and after.

-Take a quick scan of your body and notice if you are still holding onto tension related to the emotion as you’ve been writing and connecting to the feeling. If so, see if you can relax any areas where the emotion is still festering in your body. For example, if your stomach is still swirling, begin to take slow deep breaths into your abdomen, feeling is expand as you inhale and soften as you exhale. If your heart is still beating faster, continue with the steady breathing, slow and deep. If your jaw and arms are still tense, see if you can exaggerate the tension, take a deep breath in, and then exhale deeply as you let all of the tension go. Repeat this until the tension releases. Then imagine a soft light streaming into the areas of discomfort and transforming any lingering sensations of the emotion, see if you can imagine the light clearing it out and letting it go.

-Then, locate an emotion on the wheel that you’d like to feel, or consider the opposite feeling state from what you were experiencing. If was anger, the opposite emotion might be to feel peaceful. Spend a little time journaling about that feeling in any way that feels helpful for you. Invite in this more desired feeling state to your mind and your body. Allow yourself the opportunity to choose how you want to feel. You can also do a short, guided meditation or guided imagery from an app to help release anything else that needs to be cleared from your body.

-Be sure to thank yourself for showing up for yourself. Thank your emotions for helping you to understand your experience internally. Thank yourself for trying a new way to be present with your emotions, and for learning to embrace your emotions. Remember, there are no bad feelings, they are all messengers, information, and necessary to understand our complicated experiences of being a human. 

I hope you will take time during this busy, often overwhelming, and stressful time of year to pause, check in with yourself and let yourself feel your emotions in a mindful, curious and compassionate way.

Inner Strength Focus: Growing Temperance to Heal Emotional Eating

We are now halfway through deeply examining the six inner strengths that research points to living a full, happy life. I’ve been talking about how to grow these strengths in relation to the ability to create a healthy relationship with food and with your body. Just as a reminder, the first three were curiosity, vitality and giving and receiving love. The one we will examine today in relation to creating a peaceful relationship with food is temperance. Temperance is an inner resource of acceptance, forgiveness and compassion.

Growing the ability to create greater temperance as an inner strength and positive resource is not a task for the weary. It requires the ability to examine your ego’s desires, to observe your own blind spots and to let go—of a lot—mostly emotions…among other things. This is often much easier in a space of desire than in a space of putting it into practice. Our ego tends to be stubborn and likes to keep its heels dug into its neediness and beliefs about the way things should be. Letting go of some of the stuck emotions that create space for temperance to grow can be a challenge. 

When we apply temperance to an unhealthy relationship with food, it allows more ability to build acceptance that the dieting/restriction mentality that you may have been dancing with for years is damaging. When you build temperance you can forgive yourself for not treating your body in a kind manner—both through what you might have done (or still do it) with food. This could be restriction of certain foods, portions or over-doing-it with food. This also relates to the words and tone you use in your inner dialogue or even out loud about food and your body. Creating space for self-compassion is key and is often the last rung on ladder of temperance that we reach reach. So, let’s dig into this dynamic inner strength and start growing some temperance to reach a higher state of happiness and contentment within and, of course, to begin to make peace with food and with yourself. 

So, first let’s observe a scenario that represents a lack of temperance, where it’s not yet a strength, and then we’ll focus on how to develop, build and grow it over time. Without temperance we often blame others for our suffering, feel like a victim and ruminate on all of our problems over and over and over again. When you apply this to food and body image it’s a constant struggle with worrying about what to eat and then scolding yourself for your choices. Lack of temperance is making negative comments about our own body and even other peoples bodies. It’s holding onto anger and resentment about a number on a scale or a piece of cake (or maybe a few pieces of cake) that got eaten—or that you denied yourself. When we lack temperance we constantly feel like our food choices and our bodies are never going to be good enough and then feel angry about it and we end up over eating or over restricting/excessive exercise to punish ourselves—leading back into a vicious and dangerous cycle where food is the problem, food is the solution… This creates a desire to be “fixed” and we are yet again googling about the latest fad diet, exercise program or hypnosis program for weight loss…

The good news is that when temperance is instilled and nurtured as an inner strength the opposite of the above is possible (and if food/body image is not your vice or struggle you can plug in whatever your personal struggle may be to get the same end result). Acceptance is the foundation of temperance. To grow the ability to accept what is true in this moment without judgment or resistance is a serious challenge. Think about the last time you were sitting there thinking about just how content you are with everything in your life. It may not happen as often as you might like—if it has happened recently for you at all. Creating opportunities for acceptance will begin to create more peace and contentment.

The first place to begin is with offering acceptance to the present moment—just as it is. That means you accept the present moment without rejecting it, without trying to change it, and without judgment. This is mindfulness in action. When you are not in a state of acceptance you are most likely in a state of wishing for something, or in a state of wanting what you right now cannot have. This lack of acceptance for the present moment creates an experience of suffering. To apply this concept to your body image, think about this, if you are wishing for your body to look different that it currently does or for the number on the scale to be different than it is, then you are only perpetuating the experience of suffering in this moment. If you can be present with what is true and not judge it, you can make a choice. If you want something to change, how can you begin to make a series of choices that move you closer towards that change you desire? This can propel you you into action mode rather than victim/stagnancy mode/wishing and not doing anything to change your struggle mode.

Forgiveness and acceptance are interconnected. Forgiveness is the structure of temperance and can be defined like this: forgiveness is releasing the wish that the past could be been any different. Sounds a lot like acceptance, right? Forgiveness is an offering and a freeing so it incorporates acceptance and moves into letting go. When you hold onto resentment towards yourself or others you are holding onto toxic suppressed emotions that only create negative thought patterns. Forgiveness is not necessarily an easy process and generally is not a forced process but a very conscious letting go. This requires patience, knowing that it may take a good bit of time to forgive completely.

Forgiveness is a decision to let go over and over again and it can free you from the toxic emotions. If you are holding onto resentment towards yourself for your patterns with food or body image, you can practice forgiving yourself for eating a certain food. You can forgive yourself for restricting a certain food. You can forgive yourself for not starting today like you said you would, or for not getting in that workout you planned to do. When you forgive yourself you will feel more empowered to create the change you want from a place of self-compassion rather than from a place of self-loathing and resentment. When you operate out of self-compassion you allow yourself to be human and to struggle without punishing yourself for mistakes. This creates inner freedom and peace.

Practicing self-compassion is offering kindness and care towards yourself. You can free your judging thoughts, you can let go of trying to force something or control your food and get in touch with your body in a new, more intuitive way. When you do this, you create a space for understanding your process, your struggles, your low motivation and search for solutions that actually work and are driven out of kindness.

Four actions you can take, starting today to build temperance as an inner strength are:

1.    Practice mindfulness for 5 minutes and notice if you are attempting to judge or control the present moment. Can you align with what is true right now without attempting to change it?

2.    Use the affirmation: “In this moment I accept myself unconditionally” Your mind may try to immediately put conditions on your ability to accept yourself (if I was this size, if I looked this way, if I hadn’t eaten that, if I…) practice letting go of the conditions and continue stating it to yourself until you can just be with it as truth.

3.    Notice how you speak to yourself and practice forgiving yourself for anything you view as a mistake. If you find you are beating yourself up internally, stop, and say to yourself, “I forgive myself for _________________.” Notice how that feels to offer compassion and forgiveness.

4. Take action. Make a choice based on self-compassion, forgiveness and feel temperance growing within as you take action towards living in this space of acceptance.

If you practice these four elements this week, notice the impact and let me know how they work for you. Building the inner strength of temperance is a process, and not meant to be an overnight change. As you continue to grow these inner strengths and use them as internal supports to make peace with food, notice how impactful the way you interact with yourself can be. These strengths represent being and feeling strong from the inside out. When you are strong you demonstrate more resilience and more ability to be self-aware. I’d love to hear about your journey to building these inner strengths within!